Winning A Race Against One’s Self

I’ve been gone for a while, working and thinking. It’s actually really good that I haven’t been hired by any companies because I need certain weeks to just gather my thoughts and assess all that’s happened. My thoughts are still being gathered, but I have something to say to all of you, something I’ve been saying to myself more and more.

So often we look at the race someone else is running, we watch them like bystanders, sometimes we try to run their race ourselves. Both of these activities guarantee failure. That is because we each have our own race to run. We lose time by just watching others, and we are not designed to run their race so it impossible for us to win it.

It is okay to appreciate the beauty of their race, the skill of their running, but all that takes is a glance, not a lifetime of watching them fulfill their purpose while you have yet to fulfill yours.

No more wasting time, no more envying others who are doing the same thing you are but in a different way. Different doesn’t mean less than or more than, it just means different (I’m aware that is poor grammar, but I believe you get my gist).

Here is the key, I must always assess whether I’m taking a break to replenish and prep or just wasting time. You see I tell myself I’m taking a much needed break but often the truth is I’m being lazy and afraid of judgement. So I’ll pretend to be prepping for my next lap when I’m really just putting off actually running.

Running is a lot of work, sometimes you fall but you can always get back up. Sometimes when I fall I think about staying down, laying there until the race is done. Which brings me to my final point.

We are not racing against the other people, the race is always against one’s self. Which means the only way to lose the race is to not finish it. To give up. It is impossible to lose by accident. So the choice is ours. Do we want to win? If yes, then lets put in the work, focus on our particular path and run like there is no tomorrow. Because there isn’t one, tomorrow is an illusion, today is what you have.

If the answer is no, well then, we shall sit and watch the others run their race, leaving our goals unfinished, purpose not served, potential unrealized.

That said, I promised an update on how the NAACP Juneteenth Event went. Not many people came but I stayed upbeat, talked to just about everyone and got asked to vend at other events. Most of the things I was selling have been bought, but I’m making more. Here are some photos of the things I was selling:
My adorable, retro Swimmer Girls, Swimmer Boys and other skintones coming soon

This is my first attempt at doing a realistic face in watercolor paints. Came out pretty good.

This is my second attempt at a watercolor portrait, I really like her face

My table at the Juneteenth Event, it looks so cute and nautical. The wind kept knocking everything down, but I picked it right back up like a BOSS.